I returned to work.
I worked a portion of Thursday and all day Friday. I have to brag on myself...I did really well. I didn't even shed a tear. Granted, my MIL stayed with Bishop on Thursday and Kevin stayed home Friday so he has not gone to "school" yet. But, still...I did it!
My company has entered the 21st century and has begun to offer "Flexible Work Options" as they call them. You can job share, work reduced hours, work from home one day per week (not an option for my job), work various shifts or ...work a compressed work week!
Woo Hoo! That was my first reaction. Bring it on. I would gladly work 10 hour days to enjoy a 4 day work week. I imagined my day off...likely Wednesdays...as mommy time with Bishop...days in the park, lunches with girlfriends, uncrowded stores. What a dream!
....reality check...
In order to accomplish this blessed 4 day work week, I would have to...
1. be in the "school" parking lot when they opened the door at 6:30AM
2. work roughly 7:15AM to 6:15PM to get my 10 hours
3. sit in traffic until arriving home around 7PM
4. scramble to make dinner, eat, visit with Kevin before Bishop gets up from his evening nap between 8:00 and 8:30
5. give Bishop his bath, bedtime bottle and have him in bed between 9:30 and 10:00
...do I really need to go on from here??? My Wednesdays would instead be spent catching up on cleaning, sleep, laundry, etc. And, I am ashamed to admit would probably include my taking Bishop to "school" sometimes so I could get these things done.
All of this, quite frankly, SUCKS! Not to mention, I would have NO quality time with my son on those 4 work days.
Other option...work 5 days from 7:15 to 4:00 and be home by 5:00...2 extra hours every night with Bishop.
I feel like I have to try the compressed work week for a few weeks so I will know for sure that it won't work for us but I really feel like I have already made up my mind.
Saturday, July 26, 2008
Tuesday, July 22, 2008
Life Lessons
I have this life lessons list posted in our home office. It has been up for awhile so I really don't pay attention to it much anymore. It caught my eye today. And, I am so glad it did.
I feel compelled to share.
1. Life isn't fair, but it's still good.
2. When in doubt, just take the next small step.
3. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone.
4. Don't take yourself too seriously. No one else does.
5. You don't have to win every argument. Agree to disagree.
6. Cry with someone. It's more healing than crying alone.
7. Make peace with your past so it won't screw up the present.
8. Don't compare your life to others. You have no idea what their journey is about.
9. If a relationship has to be a secret, you shouldn't be in it.
10. Everything can change in the blink of an eye. Don't worry; God never blinks.
11. Life is too short for long pity parties. Get busy living or get busy dying.
12. When it comes to going after what you love in life, don't take no for an answer.
13. Burn the candles, use the nice sheets, wear the fancy lingerie. Today is special.
14. Over prepare, then go with the flow.
15. Be eccentric now. Don't wait for old age to wear purple.
16. No one is in charge of your happiness except you.
17. Frame every so-called disaster with these words: "In five years, will this matter?"
18. Forgive everyone everything.
19. What other people thing of you is none of your business.
20. Time heals almost everything. Give time time.
21. However good or bad a situation is, it will change.
22. Your job won't take care of you when you are sick. Your friends will. Stay in touch.
23. Belive in miracles.
24. God loves you because of who God is, not because of anything you did or didn't do.
25. Whatever doesn't kill you really does make you stronger.
26. Growing old beats the alternative - dying young.
27. Your children only get one childhood. Make it memorable.
28. Read the Psalms. They cover every human emotion.
29. Get outside every day. Miracles are waiting everywhere.
30. If we all threw our problems in a pile and saw everyone's elses, we'd grab ours back.
31. All that truly matters in the end is that you loved.
32. The best is yet to come.
33. No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up.
34. If you don't ask, you don't get.
35. Yield.
I feel compelled to share.
1. Life isn't fair, but it's still good.
2. When in doubt, just take the next small step.
3. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone.
4. Don't take yourself too seriously. No one else does.
5. You don't have to win every argument. Agree to disagree.
6. Cry with someone. It's more healing than crying alone.
7. Make peace with your past so it won't screw up the present.
8. Don't compare your life to others. You have no idea what their journey is about.
9. If a relationship has to be a secret, you shouldn't be in it.
10. Everything can change in the blink of an eye. Don't worry; God never blinks.
11. Life is too short for long pity parties. Get busy living or get busy dying.
12. When it comes to going after what you love in life, don't take no for an answer.
13. Burn the candles, use the nice sheets, wear the fancy lingerie. Today is special.
14. Over prepare, then go with the flow.
15. Be eccentric now. Don't wait for old age to wear purple.
16. No one is in charge of your happiness except you.
17. Frame every so-called disaster with these words: "In five years, will this matter?"
18. Forgive everyone everything.
19. What other people thing of you is none of your business.
20. Time heals almost everything. Give time time.
21. However good or bad a situation is, it will change.
22. Your job won't take care of you when you are sick. Your friends will. Stay in touch.
23. Belive in miracles.
24. God loves you because of who God is, not because of anything you did or didn't do.
25. Whatever doesn't kill you really does make you stronger.
26. Growing old beats the alternative - dying young.
27. Your children only get one childhood. Make it memorable.
28. Read the Psalms. They cover every human emotion.
29. Get outside every day. Miracles are waiting everywhere.
30. If we all threw our problems in a pile and saw everyone's elses, we'd grab ours back.
31. All that truly matters in the end is that you loved.
32. The best is yet to come.
33. No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up.
34. If you don't ask, you don't get.
35. Yield.
Monday, July 21, 2008
Mommy Poll
Ok...so I am copying this from some of my friend's blogs...eventhough I am a new mommy, I still want to play.
1. Were you married at the time? Yes.
2. What were your reactions when you found out you were pregnant? Oops. Surprised, freaked, excited!
3. How old were you? 31 when I found out, 32 when I gave birth.
4. How did you find out you were pregnant? I just felt different. My period's have always been like clockwork and I was cramping about a week early. So, I actually took a test before I missed my period. I think I just knew.
5. Who did you tell first? Kevin
6. Did you want to find out the sex? Definitely. Way too much of a planner not to find out.
7. Due date? June 4, 2008
8. Did you deliver early or late? 1 week early
9. Did you have morning sickness? yes but the B6 & Unisom cocktail really worked
10. What did you crave? Milk. To be more specific, I drank 2 gallons (skim) a week by myself.
11. Who irritated you the most? co-workers. They say the dumbest things.
12. What was your first child's sex? boy
13. How many pounds did you gain throughout the pregnancy? 60. I am happy to report that I have lost 40+/- at 8 week post partum.
14. Did you have any complications during your pregnancy? high blood pressure and severe swelling
15. Where did you give birth? Northside
16. How many hours were you in labor? I wasn't really ever "in labor"...due to high blood pressure and his "estimated" size, I had a c-section following a routine appt. I was contracting and 4 cm while at the hospital though.
17. Who drove you to the hospital? myself...actually I just walked through the ridiculously long tunnel from my doc's office
18. Who watched? Kevin
19. Was it natural or c-section? c-section
20. Did you take medicine to ease the pain? obviously...did it work...not really
21. How much did your child weigh? 9 lbs 3oz
22. Did your child have any complications? no
23. What did you name him/her? Bishop Michael
24. How old is your first born today? 7 weeks 5 days
1. Were you married at the time? Yes.
2. What were your reactions when you found out you were pregnant? Oops. Surprised, freaked, excited!
3. How old were you? 31 when I found out, 32 when I gave birth.
4. How did you find out you were pregnant? I just felt different. My period's have always been like clockwork and I was cramping about a week early. So, I actually took a test before I missed my period. I think I just knew.
5. Who did you tell first? Kevin
6. Did you want to find out the sex? Definitely. Way too much of a planner not to find out.
7. Due date? June 4, 2008
8. Did you deliver early or late? 1 week early
9. Did you have morning sickness? yes but the B6 & Unisom cocktail really worked
10. What did you crave? Milk. To be more specific, I drank 2 gallons (skim) a week by myself.
11. Who irritated you the most? co-workers. They say the dumbest things.
12. What was your first child's sex? boy
13. How many pounds did you gain throughout the pregnancy? 60. I am happy to report that I have lost 40+/- at 8 week post partum.
14. Did you have any complications during your pregnancy? high blood pressure and severe swelling
15. Where did you give birth? Northside
16. How many hours were you in labor? I wasn't really ever "in labor"...due to high blood pressure and his "estimated" size, I had a c-section following a routine appt. I was contracting and 4 cm while at the hospital though.
17. Who drove you to the hospital? myself...actually I just walked through the ridiculously long tunnel from my doc's office
18. Who watched? Kevin
19. Was it natural or c-section? c-section
20. Did you take medicine to ease the pain? obviously...did it work...not really
21. How much did your child weigh? 9 lbs 3oz
22. Did your child have any complications? no
23. What did you name him/her? Bishop Michael
24. How old is your first born today? 7 weeks 5 days
Only 3 days until I return to work
I return to work on Thursday.
I really don't know what to say about that. I am fairly anxious about leaving my son. I know he will be fine. I just think about working the long hours (compressed 4 day week) and how little I will see him awake. That part makes me sad. Will he know me? Remember me?
Moving on...just can't focus on that today.
I am happy to be getting out of the house. I love our home and have enjoyed the past 8 weeks but I need more adult interaction.
Why do I sound like I am justifying???? I need to stop.
I need to be grateful that we can afford to send Bishop to a good childcare facility.
I am grateful that my company will allow me to work a 4 day week.
I am grateful my mother will be able to keep Bishop all next week so he doesn't have to go to school yet.
I am grateful we will have enough money left after funding my time off to pay off some debt.
I am grateful we have one payment left on Kevin's truck.
I am grateful Bishop is catching up on some sleep today.
I think that is good list of things to be grateful for today.
I really don't know what to say about that. I am fairly anxious about leaving my son. I know he will be fine. I just think about working the long hours (compressed 4 day week) and how little I will see him awake. That part makes me sad. Will he know me? Remember me?
Moving on...just can't focus on that today.
I am happy to be getting out of the house. I love our home and have enjoyed the past 8 weeks but I need more adult interaction.
Why do I sound like I am justifying???? I need to stop.
I need to be grateful that we can afford to send Bishop to a good childcare facility.
I am grateful that my company will allow me to work a 4 day week.
I am grateful my mother will be able to keep Bishop all next week so he doesn't have to go to school yet.
I am grateful we will have enough money left after funding my time off to pay off some debt.
I am grateful we have one payment left on Kevin's truck.
I am grateful Bishop is catching up on some sleep today.
I think that is good list of things to be grateful for today.
Wednesday, July 9, 2008
Virgin Blogger
Here I am ... hoping my 6 week old son sleeps another 30 minutes so I can attempt my first blog post.
Yes...I am a virgin blogger. I always thought of myself as someone who was "current" with technology. I know how to use the TIVO. I can hold my own on the PC. I can even download music. But, I found recently that my 32 year old brain is behind. Technology has sped past me and now I struggle to keep up. And seriously, I am NOT old.
Anyway, so here is my first post.
I have probably chosen a bad day for my first post. I feel pretty down today. Blame it on the stupid hormones or lack of...not sure which. My son was born 6 weeks ago today and I am still an uncontrolable ball of emotion. Tears of joy, sadness, loneliness, guilt, boredom...you name it...I have cried because of it. Per doctors instructions, I am giving it another 2 weeks. Just in time for me to go back to work and be upset about that. Motherhood is guilt ridden I have discovered.
Guilt for wanting to be around adults. Guilt for having the TV on Law & Order around my son. Guilt that I don't clean up more around the house while my husband is at work. Guilt that it doesn't all come so naturally.
I told my friend today that I was surprised that I wanted to go back to work. Don't get me wrong...I will really miss being around my son. But, I think I need to be out of the house and around adults. (sigh...guilt) She said the most profound thing....well, for me at the moment anyway. She said.."what is good for you is good for him"...and she is right. I know she is.
I choose to believe it will be good for my son too!
Who...is now awake and crying...gotta run!
Yes...I am a virgin blogger. I always thought of myself as someone who was "current" with technology. I know how to use the TIVO. I can hold my own on the PC. I can even download music. But, I found recently that my 32 year old brain is behind. Technology has sped past me and now I struggle to keep up. And seriously, I am NOT old.
Anyway, so here is my first post.
I have probably chosen a bad day for my first post. I feel pretty down today. Blame it on the stupid hormones or lack of...not sure which. My son was born 6 weeks ago today and I am still an uncontrolable ball of emotion. Tears of joy, sadness, loneliness, guilt, boredom...you name it...I have cried because of it. Per doctors instructions, I am giving it another 2 weeks. Just in time for me to go back to work and be upset about that. Motherhood is guilt ridden I have discovered.
Guilt for wanting to be around adults. Guilt for having the TV on Law & Order around my son. Guilt that I don't clean up more around the house while my husband is at work. Guilt that it doesn't all come so naturally.
I told my friend today that I was surprised that I wanted to go back to work. Don't get me wrong...I will really miss being around my son. But, I think I need to be out of the house and around adults. (sigh...guilt) She said the most profound thing....well, for me at the moment anyway. She said.."what is good for you is good for him"...and she is right. I know she is.
I choose to believe it will be good for my son too!
Who...is now awake and crying...gotta run!
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